Ch...ch...changes

Beloved,

​When Jason came in and told me that his surgery had been scheduled, I was speechless.  Only for a minute!  We had been talking, he told me he was getting a call, he came in, said it was scheduled, and I was speechless.  It seemed in that moment that nothing had changed, and everything had changed. 

Suddenly, our plans were thrown out and new ones made.  Suddenly, we had the conversations that were anticipated but not so soon!  Everything and nothing had changed. 

Isn’t this the way it is with God?  You have a new insight, a new understanding, a moment, and everything and nothing changed.  Your life is still exactly the same and completely different. 

It is the moment of the positive pregnancy test.  It is the moment the phone rings and someone says, “Hello”.  It is the moment you cannot go back to who you were just one minute before. 

I have a handful of moments that have left me speechless.  When I got my words back, they were not always prayerful, or even to God.  Many time it is only after many words that I find myself talking to God. My hope and prayer is that as I continue to grow in my faith, that my first words are to God. 
 
Praise. Lament. Wonder. Worry. Joy. Grief. Celebration. Loss. Love.  
 
In all of those big moments, we are closer to God than we might even know.  Let us grow so that we are ever more aware. 

And, I might need to remember that sometimes words are not necessary.  Silence is filled with more than words.  It is true communion.
 
Much Love,
Temple