As a young person and into my adulthood, I was scared to death of thunderstorms. I would call my mom to come get me when I was in high school and I had a car that I drove. It would be left in the parking lot until the storm was over. I worked in a day care when Jason and I first got married. I would call him to come hang out with me if it stormed and I was there alone. Many times he would show up because he knew I was scared. After all the children had gone home, I might have work to do and he would have to come and sit with me.
I live with a dog that is scared of storms. When the storms came through this week, I heard the loud rolling thunder, I got up immediately to go give him some medicine to calm him down. Before the thunder had ended, he was at my door, scratching. I talked to him as I made my way to the kitchen. I completely understand his fear. When he is outside, standing under this tree makes him feel safe. What a nerd. Even when it is not in bloom, he stands under it and thinks he is safe. Bless his heart.
But, I get it. I get the need to feel safe. To feel covered and if I do this the right way, storms will not do damage in my life.
We know this is not true. The storms come. They roll in when we least expect them. They roll in even when they are expected.
I had talk with myself about 15 years ago and said-Self, you are not longer afraid of storms. You will pay attention to them and do what is necessary to prepare. But, you will not be afraid. Respect them, yes. Scared, no.
Surprisingly enough, once I did that, I found that I could roll with them. Now! I enjoy a good thunderstorm. I also have my shoes and helmet ready if there are tornados.
When we walk with Jesus, the storms may roll in unexpectedly. I remind us all-that Jesus is not surprised. Jesus is with us and when we stay close to him, we can and do find our way through the storms.
I guess my question is: What do you do the makes you feel like you can control the unexpected storms in life? Is it truly working for you? Or do we need to look to the one who stills the storm and trust in Him?
I have a couple of plants I keep alive. Some of it is dumb luck and the rest is the plants will to survive. I know that it is time to replant them. They need new soil and I need to knock out some of the roots. They can get so bound up in their roots that they can't live.
Interesting. I talk about having shallow roots that are wide. I have moved my whole life. Some of you have hardly ever moved.
Both have their merits.
As I think about repotting these plants, it makes me think about the roots that I need to remove. Even in my shallow rootedness, I have things that hold me back. Things that won't let me flourish.
I also have some pretty shallow ones that I need to let grow and get a little deeper.
Plus, there is something about fresh dirt, good water, and a little love that even makes my plants happy!
I got to spend a little over 2 days with the people who are in the candidacy process. We are on interview teams and we meet with people every year as they make their way to ordination. It is hard holy work. I love it!
Do you know why? There are so many words! Written, spoken, sung, whispered, yelled, and all of it is holy. I love it!
The second best part is that we were together in person! It is so much better to be in the room with these people. Plus, the team gets to be together too. I love it!
Serving in this way fills me up even as I am emptied. It has been 2 years since I had to drive, get up earlier, get dressed, and be dressed all day. I even loved this!
It gives me such hope to be with people who love Jesus and are called to serve the church and God in this way. I love it!
It is my sweet spot! I love it!
Where do you find yourself filled even as you are being emptied?